Caught in the mercy fallout

Fulfilling His Promise

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 15:54:24 GMT

JG camp this year was, for me, the best youth camp i've been to in years. it wasnt because it was in batam, or because we had really lux rooms and good food. it wasnt because of the awesome campers and their supercalifragilisticexpialadocious group leaders. It wasnt cos of all the fun and games and great skits the groups put up. it wasnt even because pastor isaiah was an inspiring fiery speaker.

it was something in the way God moved that nght we prayed so hungrily, so desperately. i've never sought God that desperately before, i felt like i was drowning. and the way He responded, pouring forth all that peace and love.. just amazing. People had tears streaming down their faces, just worshipping, others were shouting at the top of the voices, screaming for God to show us more of Him. Pastor isaiah didnt lay a hand on anybody, he didnt even pray for us, there was no emo music to stir our human emotions, but oh my God, every single youth in that room was crying out to God, arms in the air, most of us prostrate on the ground, humbled and desperate for the glory of heaven. And boy, did it fill the room.

i have never seen JG pray so loud, so hungrily, so boldly in my life. Person after person came up to the microphone of their own accord to pray over the youths. people so shy in everyday life, the last people you'd expect to run to the front and pick up the mic, praying so boldly, giving vision after vision, stirring after stirring.

just having this taste of what i know God can do in my life, and how my life can be used for His purposes, it gives me so much sense of purpose and satisfaction. I can't wait to see what this future holds. its not going to one spent in an office, and then going home to a TV dinner and bed. It's gonna be one filled with joy, music, God's presence, going forth and reaching out to people and making an impact on the people that i love.

Man, I'm so excited about my tomorrow with my God and saviour!

Holiday in Hong Kong

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 05:11:44 GMT

Madame Tussauds at the Peak was fun. Yea, me and Ayumi, we go a long way back. Also, Johnny and I had coordinated couple outfits. it was pure coincidence, i swear.

My new skate shoes/boots from H&M. Very tired after 3 days of pounding the streets and shopping. I love the wintry weather, so i can finally put my leather jacket to use again. I love winter clothes, knitted hats, leggings, coats, scarves, boots. now, if only singapore weather would cooperate. And i found a SEPHORA! Heavens open and angels sing.

Bought this make-up kit from Sephora. It's called Sephora in a Box "Oh my gold!". haha. After this buy, I swore I would not buy make-up ever again, for the next 2 years at least. Was in the store when i chanced upon this. another girl was opening up the sample set, and when she opened it up all the way, I blurted, "Woah." She turned around and grinned, "I know right? and its only 399!" Thats like $80 in SGD. so i wander around the rest of the store but all i could think of was the box set. so i succumbed, and went back to the shelf for it. another girl was already there picking up a new box. i think they fly off the shelves quite fast. So, whee.. yes, my biggest haul from hong Kong.

It opens up to not one tier...

Not TWO tiers....

But THREE TIERS of eyeshadows, lip colours, blushers and bronzers. I think i died and went to make-up heaven!

And finally, just cos i cant keep it in, and even though its still another three months away... I AM GONNA GO SEE PARAMORE!!!!!

I shot for the sky, I'm stuck on the ground. So why do I try?

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 17:39:42 GMT

I dont know where Im at
Im standing at the back
And Im tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that Ill find what Ive been chasing.

I shot for the sky
Im stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know Im gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why its coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But Im missing way too much
So when do I give up what Ive been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
Im stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know Im gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why its coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Cant find another way around
And I dont want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.
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When I was watching the last scene from episode 6 of The Vampire Diaries, I couldnt even concentrate on the weepy scene where Elena tells Stefan she can't be with him cos he's a vampire, all because I was just captivated by the song in the background: "Down" by Jason Walker. Rightaway I was on another internet window googling the first line of the song. haha. Have time, take a listen. The harmonies are so beautiful!

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 11:27:18 GMT

— Maya Angelou

Thanks Aiken for posting this on your tumblr. it was a timely reminder for a damn-awful day.

my awesome new wallpaper

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 08:04:23 GMT

mord siths have got to be the most crazy awesome fantasy race ever created. maybe someday during Halloween i can get a mord sith costume.
i know u cant see clearly, but my yellow post-it note says: "Exams. com401 Nov 25, biz law dec 2, com411 dec 3."
Man, cant wait to get this semester over and done with. no more studying/projects/exams for the next 9 months! Internship starts in January and i'll be working at Wine&Dine magazine. hmm, maybe by the time i'm done i'll be so fat i cant ever dream of fitting into a mord sith costume without looking like an exploding lap cheong.
okay back to media management. zzz. all who hate it say 'aye'.

Better looking out of the water

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 15:17:12 GMT

Went with Kerrie to the Singapore Design Festival opening at Ion today. we met the president and Adrian Pang. here's the requisite fangirl shot. click here to read more about the event!

Awesome Mash up!

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 05:17:32 GMT

wah lau. who knew lady gaga and paramore could sound so good tgt. haha.

Soundtrack of my life

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 03:45:24 GMT

"Stuck in a moment that you can't get out of."

- U2

this song always loops in my head when its the exam period.

Joel's Birthday Surprise!

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 16:37:04 GMT

The family surprised my brother for his 18th birthday with a gift he's been bugging us about for ages. now all he has to do is wait to after his Alevels to use it. hahaha.

That's What You Get (Acapella)

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 16:19:34 GMT

Man these guys are really good! Makes me sorta kinda miss choir.
The lead singer looks like Jesus, but fatter.

All I want for Christmas...

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 16:11:57 GMT

... Is the box-set DVD of the Legend of the Seeker lah, what were you thinking?!

It's a [The] Material World

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 04:59:21 GMT

Awesome new band alert!!!

Check them out. they have a rocking cover of Apologize. www.myspace.com/thematerial

And yes, it rocks to be a singer. Colleen: "See most of the guys they have to carry their big amps and agh, drumsets and stuff... me? i just have two important pieces of equipment, my senheisser microphone, and my senheisser in-ear monitors."

Chloe has a new pretty baby sister

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 14:43:04 GMT

Almost as pretty as Colbie Caillat's Gibson.

Oh purty hayley

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 03:31:13 GMT

a quick picture before i head down to school. again. one hour train rides rock. if i can find a seat that is. then i can just read, daydream, put paramore on shuffle, or people watch from behind large opaque sunnies. in today's case, do my damn biz law tutorial which i swore i'd do last night, but ended up going on youtube.

ok, off for project meeting now. ciao.

Music Quiz

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:34:35 GMT

List 10 musical artists you like, in no specific order (do this before reading the questions below). Really, don’t read the questions below until you pick your ten artists!!!

01. Marie Digby
02. Colbie Caillat
03. The Corrs
04. Paramore
05. Automatic Loveletter
06. Jay Chou
07. Brooke Fraser
08. Katy Perry
09. Hey Monday
10. Evanescence

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
I think it was in Sec 3, Qing Tian. I still remember most of lyrics despite my lousy mandarin.

What is your favorite song of 8?
Thinking of You

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
She (and colbie) inspired me to pick up the guitar

What is your favorite lyric of 5?
“and i remember, that day that saved us
the way you kissed me, and the salt it filled my eyes and we remember,
our californa the night we slept along the shore and washed away." - The Day that Saved Us

Because it reminds me of the night of July 4th on Venice Beach, watching fireworks and shivering our asses off.

How many times have you seen 4 live?
ONE UNFORGETTABLE TIME. hayley i love you.

What is your favorite song by 7?
'Lead me to the Cross', made me cry on a bus on the way home from Tung Ling.

Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
'Don't Say You Love Me'. It transports me back to Sydney 1999.

What is your favorite song by 9?
6 Months (cos I can play the intro on the guitar, hahaha)

When did you first get into 2?
In August 2007 when 8days magazine reviewed her CD and called her 'the female Jack Johnson'. I went out and bought the CD rightaway and it was on loop for a year, accompanying me through many lonely nights in hall.

How did you get into 3?
Their song 'What can I do' was hot on the radio in like 1998 and I started stealing all their CDs from my uncle.

What is your favorite song by 4?
omg how to pick just one?! haha. If i really have to choose, it'd be 'My Heart' cos the screams are intense. 'Turn it Off' from the new album is my favourite off it.

How many times have you seen 9 live?
None. boo.

What is a good memory concerning 2?
(Hey! 'Lucky' is on radio now, how coincidental) Being very excited when I went to buy her sophomore album last month.

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?
Are you kidding?! Thinking of You. kills me everytime.

What is your favorite song of 10?
Call Me When You're Sober

In good company

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:41:49 GMT

Okay i have yet to forget my own lyrics, but then again i've only written one.
She's so adorable here. after two false starts she says, "I dont remember the words..."
Audience: dont try to follow me
Hayley: what? oh!

This is like the video where Juliet Simms' voice breaks when she sings 'Hush'. I love these blooper videos, they make my superheroes seem so fallible, so human.

Brand New Eyes

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 11:51:46 GMT

I got a taste of it in Los Angeles. a tantalising whiff.
I waited, patiently, impatiently.
anticipation.
I hunted for it. no luck.
'not out yet'
'sold out'
I resisted the temptation to steal it. (piracy is a crime)
and now finally...

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

all thanks to the bf. thank u thank u for going all over city hall to find it. :))

the whats-gg-on-in-my-life post

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 14:19:58 GMT

Am kinda tired. this semester's wearing on me as hard as i try not to let it. feels nice to have queen bitch and gang back again this sem tho. am so slacking behind at school sometimes i feel really bad, and then i try to catch up. whats worse is that the whole of recess week is gone because i'll be in hanoi with my sojourn class (thats short overseas journ class). so there goes my catch-up week.

been thinking about internship next year too. not to mention FYP for year four, i hear some ppl are already forming FYP groups. man, i pray things fall into place for me. what i would really wanna do is produce a book. i dunno what kind of book, but a book. could be a cookbook for all i care. a novel, an anthology of short stories/poems/plays. a coffeetable book full of beautiful photos. so exciting. anyone interested to form a FYP group? :)

as for internship, i really want one with a magazine, so i'll prob try for Lexicon. hopefully get stuck to wine n dine or home concepts or something. they produce New Man magazine too. but Ivan says thats like FHM and he thinks it'll be embarassing if people ask him where his gf is interning and he says, "oh she's interning at New Man." i dont think its really that sleazy right? i actually think it'd be quite amusing to tell people i intern there. hahaha.

OK so this is the end of my whats-gg-on-in-life post. havent done one since i came back from LA. i think cos my life is boring.

anyways, check out Hope For Monday's Myspace if you've got the time. --> www.myspace.com/hopeformonday

i love the way you...

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 16:06:35 GMT

sing in that scratchy tone (juliet has a scratchier voice tho)
dye your hair orange (i wish i could do that without looking like a carrot)
dont have a perfect complexion so us normal girls feel like we can relate
are looking at the lyrics on the floor
wear those white booties
have your eyeliner on (mental note: try out tmr)
make a funny face at the end of the video (did you think it was bad? it was awesome)

(Paramore covering "Use Somebody" by KOL)

I not pirate

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:36:03 GMT

I went to The Cathay on Sunday to watch the new-ish Jack Neo film ‘Where Got Ghost?’ And while that movie wasn’t showing there anymore, a display in the Gramophone windows got me very excited. “Ohmigawd Colbie’s new album is out!!” I shrieked. Yes, I am on first name basis with Colbie Caillat, and Hayley from Paramore and Cher and Madonna. I’d gone to a couple of CD shops on August 25 hoping to buy the album the day it was released in the US, but unfortunately, it didn’t occur to me that we aren’t in the US. Duh.

I’m not normally a CD buyer, having found a quicker, cheaper and more convenient way of getting my music: Rapidshare. Besides, I’d run out of shelf space for physical CDs somewhere in 2003. And everyone I know gets their music for pretty much free nowadays. It just seems a little silly to be forking out tens of dollars for music you can get from someone else. But when it comes to artistes I really really like, and know are gonna produce awesome albums, I will spare no expense.

So I ran in, grabbed the deluxe edition and paid up. On the way out, I spied the Arctic Monkeys’ new album and knowing that my brother is a huge fan, and being the wonderful sister that I am, I called him: “Hey! I’m at Gramophone now, holding the Arctic Monkeys album. You want it?”

“How much is it?”

“Err… $16.95, after discount,” I said, thinking it was pretty cheap compared to the $20 CD I was clutching in my other hand.

“What?!! So expensive. I already downloaded 5 of the songs from that album leh,” he complained. “And why did you buy the Colbie Caillat album? Didn’t Becky already download it?”

Becky is my younger sister, and she had already downloaded the album when it was released in Europe a week ago. I had adamantly refused to listen to it and take part in robbing Colbie of money from CD sales. “Wah lau, if you like them then you should support them! The music industry is dying cos of people like you!” I yelled down the phone. “So do you want it?”

“Is there a booklet in it? Yes? Okay fine get it get it.”

“Okay I’m paying for it now, don’t change your mind,” I said, taking the phone away from my ear to hang up. And then as I make to press the ‘end call’ button, I hear a little metallic voice from the phone:

“Wah lau so waste money!”

This post first appeared on www.tattlermag.com

Yessir, I would take you home

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 13:30:17 GMT

He buys the groceries and throws in a free pot. He cooks up a storm, and cleans up afterwards. He's got a sexy grin and dirty blonde hair, AND he's from Australia. He's take-home chef, Curtis Stone. Only he could wave a raw fish around while wearing an apron and look hot doing it.

"Breakthrough"

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 15:31:37 GMT

YAYYYY!!!!

I remember the first time I came across Colbie Caillat. it was a tiny little write up in 8 days in their music review section. i remember the reviewer only wrote one line: "A female Jack Johnson". That was way back in August of 2007 i think, when i first started school in NTU. I bought that album based on that one line review. I was with Ivan and we were in Sembawang records and sampling the album. i remember thinking she sounded quite manly, but i fell in love with Bubbly on the first spin and bought the album.

That album tided me through many a lonely night in NTU hall.
AND NOW. finally, after two years of waiting and downloading miscellaneous tracks off playlist.com, Colbie's sophomore album is coming out!!! 25 August. woo hoo.

I want:
The new album
her pretty pretty gibson (i think)guitar
her voice like honey over rocks
her flaxen hair and sunshine skin
her cool rasta back up singer/guitarist

A wasted weekend

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 08:41:06 GMT

I thought i was gonna die.

So there i am on a (relatively) happy friday night watching shanghai noon with my sister. i'd missed lifegroup cos my ulcers were giving me a headache and i still had stuff to prepare for worship on Saturday. Having just eaten dinner and downing a packet of green tea, i am suddenly hit by a wave of nausea that makes my mouth turn sour. so i dash upstairs and sit on the floor next to the toilet bowl and wait for the inevitable puke monster. i really really hate throwing up, i dont know how bulimic girls do it,

Then i spend the next three hours puking my guts out and fainting on the floor with my mom and sis taking turns to ask me to drink water and sit up. but i cant cos my whole body feels alien and i cant feel my hands anymore. my head's spinning and all i wanna do is curl up in a ball on the bathroom floor and go to a happier place in my mind. i think i actually slipped into unconsciousness a few times cos i dreamt i was back in LA. I throw up until all that was left to throw up was bile and stomach acid. which is yellow and bitter if u must know.

And then i spend the rest of the night stumbling in and out of the bathroom cos i was having a crazy kind of diarrhoea where your intestines turn to slush and all thats coming out is water, and later, blood.

I havent eaten anything except a few mouthfuls of porridge and some soup since Friday night. my stomach seems to have glued itself together such that anything i swallow is stuck in my throat. Compounded with a fever and a chest congestion, my parents are convinced im swine-flued. nah i dont think so. i already feel heaps better since friday cos ive been sleeping all day for the past two days. i now feel like i have bed sores.

on a happier note, my grades from UCLA have come in and i got As for both classes. too bad, the GPA is non-transferable. So take that, all you people who say i went there to tour not to study!

What's red hot, white and blue?

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 16:26:27 GMT

went to watch GI Joe with Germaine, Ruth and whole bunch of guys today. i liked it very much! hence New Tattler movie review! see www.tattlermag.com. This is a slightly edited version for my blog, cos im too lazy to write twice.

What’s Red Hot, White… and Blue?

Channing Tatum as an All-American G.I Joe, that’s what.

So Germaine calls me up on Monday saying she’s organizing a movie outing and it’s all boys except for her. “Go leh, I don’t wanna be the only girl,” she begs. And there I am thinking that she’s the kind of girl who normally enjoys chick flicks and the occasional comedy, why would she be keen on G.I Joe??

Well, now I know. Girls, as much as G.I Joe is a testosterone-filled, macho show, there’s something in it for you as well. His name is Channing ‘I can dance and fight’ Tatum. Or if you’re into funny, but still smoking, ‘chocolate men’ (cue tinkly piano intro from Vanessa Carlton’s ‘A Thousand Miles’), there’s Marlon Wayans of White Chicks fame.

I didn’t expect to like the show, especially after the other testosterone-filled summer blockbuster that was Transformers 2. There was just waaay too much metal smashing into one another in that one.

Sure, the plot has more holes and is more cheesy than swiss cheese, but what did you expect, A Beautiful Mind? It’s a movie based on plastic figurines, for crying out loud. The action sequences are fantasmic, as they should be. Awesome futuristic technology, machines and weapons make things blow up everywhere, and because all things Asian are so cool now, insert invincible Ninja warriors complete with flying shurikens with the accuracy of snipers.

And oh, all the beautiful people in the show! Even Dennis Quaid at 55 still looks pretty darn good as General Hawk, leader of the Joes. There’s the blonde Sienna Miller who plays Duke’s (Channing Tatum) love interest/ex-fiancée now turned brunette bad guy. And then there’s the redhead bombshell aptly named Scarlett (Rachel Nichols) whose sole responsibility is to look really hot in a brown leather jacket and make me wish I had flaming red hair.

Some people complain that all the back stories and flashbacks slow down the pace of the movie, but I actually enjoyed them very much. It set G.I Joe apart from the likes of the Transformers franchise and made me feel a little more emotionally involved in the action sequences.

The ending of the movie just begs for a sequel and yea, I’m looking forward to it. Director Steven Sommers, I forgive you for making my beloved Hugh Jackman act in that lame-o show Van Helsing.

With a heavy thud and the roar of engine brakes, I was home.

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:16:01 GMT

The plane ride was arduous, though the whole trip back felt shorter than the time it took to go. but still. i remember one moment on the ten hour LA to Narita leg when my whole body felt so cramp and stiff that i was ready to jump out of my skin and shout: "ARE WE THERE YET??!".then i looked at my watch and realized there was 6 hours to go. can die sia.

and all of a sudden, with a heavy thud (the plane and my heart) and the roar of engine brakes, i realized that i was home.

Binged on all the food that i missed, tom yum from outside church, black hokkien mee, pepper crab, maggi mee, chicken rice. i'll be happy if i never see another burger in my life. okay lah, not really, the burger at Covel was really the bomb. with the dijon mustard. Rai tells me that she and jai stole a lot of earl grey tea bags before they left. haha.

i am glad to be back. it was really fun catching up with the familty and the friends, and squishing zoey. but i do miss some things from my life there, like the roomies and the WEATHER and the independence.

seems i skipped the whole jet lag thing, what with me having no good sleep in three days. the night before i was due to leave, the fire alarm went off in Sproul Hall at 4am and everyone evacuated in their jammies. i was still awake then so i was lucid enough to grab a hoodie. it was funny to watch hundreds of ppl huddled in the cold and fire engines flashing when there was actually no fire.
what a way to spend my last night in LA.

my mom kept 7 weeks worth of 8Days magazines for me, so i am happy girl. bye.